Love? Life? Lifestyle? Label? Nope it’s Lies!
Before I get into this, I am still me, I am still strong, but I am tired!
My L word…Lies.
Why do we have the ability to lie? I get the cheesy ones, you know the ‘No, you can’t have that it will hurt you.’ ‘No, I can’t come I am ill.’ ‘No, I am to tired.’
But what about the ‘he said’ ‘she said’ kind of lies, the ones that people think will make them feel better or achieve more? Do people just not care about hurting other people? Are they really that much of a coward that they have to make up a silly story to make themselves feel better? To make them feel like they have achieved something? Does it make them feel better? Or does it make them sink a little deeper but they never realise?
I wish that the people I had around me didn’t lie. I wish that people could see that life is so easy, you can live life without lies, you just don’t need to lie to the point of hurting someone or getting yourself into trouble. Why lie and then work so hard not to slip up, to have to spend so much time trying to hide the lie with another lie so it doesn’t unravel…Gosh it’s draining just thinking about it!
I have heard enough lies this year alone from many different people, I have removed enough negative people from my life this year, but they will still keep coming(the lies), I have done nothing to these people, I have no energy for these people.
I have a loving partner and a beautiful baby girl. My back should hurt from the tiredness from my little family of three, my head should hurt from the tiredness of my day to day schedule, but it doesn’t. My back and my head hurt because of the lies, because of the hurt they have caused.
I am done…I am tired…I need to be left alone…I crave to be freed from all the negativity…but I just can’t seem to hide for long enough.